She knew the formula long before she was able to use it. It took her time to get ready. After all, she had built herself solidly into that body. By the time she was forty-six she automatically flew to food at any turn of events, big or small, emotional or physical, slight distress or crisis, morning, noon, or night. Lately she had been noticing this more and she was having flashes of insight into her dedication to this kind of existence. She could see how it was the center of life around which everything else orbited. Far from being discouraged by such a thought, it startled her out of her reverie. It made her think that change was possible.
For Maria, trying to lose weight had always been an obstacle course with a roadblock at every step. What exactly got in her way? To find out, she did a pretty simple thing. She took her journal and began to write a description of the experience of dieting, trying to catch the trouble spots right when they came up.
excerpt from Breaking Up With Food: Maria’s Last Diet. By Julie North Schwarz and Kenneth Schwarz PhD — a novel of passionate weight loss