Maybe you have thoughts and feelings about how much your eating bothers you.
Who else have you told?
It can really help to talk about it with someone, someone you trust to listen with an open mind and heart. Some women talk to a close friend, some to a sister, some to a therapist or counselor.
What happens when you let someone else in to your struggle is that the interchange can make things clearer to you. First of all, just saying out loud something like: I’m driven to eat when I don’t really want to—just saying it, admitting it, letting someone else hear it who might not think it’s the worse thing in the world can help you understand yourself better, and even accept yourself better.
Then, other people can often help you figure out what to do, if the problem has been too difficult for you to solve. Other people can give you fresh insights, maybe coming from problems they themselves have had in life and were able to solve.
Being secretive about certain things because we’re too embarrassed to talk about them can sometimes hurt us. Reaching out to another person for help and support can break you out of a problem, especially one that you’ve not been able to find an answer to.